Resurrection Life

Restoration of Identity

 Hello friends and family. It's been a month since my last update, and so much has happened already; stories full of adventures and amazing testimonies of our loving God and Father pruning me through DTS to grow and produce fruit.

I will start off by sharing a short testimony from  Nations 2 Nations celebration week, one of our celebrations here in YWAM. Where we celebrate our differences, equipped and encouraged to go to all nations. Also a place of reconciliation and restoration of identities which was a big thing for me. In all of my life I struggled to know who I am, which culture I belong to, and where do I came from. With these I carried deep hurt inside me of been called by names and told I'm not black enough, not coloured enough, even here people will make jokes about it. If you didn't know my whole family is coloured in my dad's side, but lived in a Xhosa village, and that's where I came. My dad meet my mum (a Xhosa) and they had me, I don't know how I would be called.

We had a Koisan mama from Namibia, from the first original people of Southern Africa, where we came from as Coloureds and Xhosas.
They called her to pray for us in Koi language, and when she started praying I broke down in tears, the Father restoring my identity and healing deep scars pain if I have any value, not knowing who am I. Now I'm learning to appreciate who I am and not being ashamed of it, because my full identity is found in Christ and not in what people say I am or where I came from. Amen!

At the end of that week, we went out to do outreach in the city as DTS's. I got the chance to preach on the train, with the support and prayers of the people I was with. One person was touched by the Father and accepted Jesus as his Lord and Savior, in perfect timing of the Holy Spirit. People were encouraged and blown away by the love and wisdom we had, the Holy Spirit was just moving through out the city.

To finish of, The Father has been teaching me about maturity, how to respond to things in a matured way but still be fully myself. I find out that even though I have victory or free from rejection and depression, base on the facts of my mess up past I still suffer deep pain, lies of I am worthless, I don't have any who cares about me, depression and suicide thoughts. I know it's the lies of the enemy which attack all of us in different ways or times. 

But we choose how to respond to them, we rather believe the lies or except the truth of our God and Father. This is what the Lord has been teaching me; He reminded me of all that He gave me and the wonderful family and friends He brought to my life. Constantly reminding me to be faithful on the little things, that it starts with me to be a faithful friend that loves and cares without expectations, continually praying for others and encourage them. Acts of kindness, in humility except correction, and that I am not always going to be right, to be okay to make mistakes and being wrong. This is my next journey; walking in maturity! That mean walking in all that the Lord commanded me to. 

Now what I am going to do after DTS; I am tired, so I will be taking a break. That means enjoying time without schedule, being in the community taking time to get to know people in our community international, being involved in one or 2day ministries locally, helping out in one on ones if needed. I wanted to do the worship school called Sound of Nations, but I couldn't. One of the leaders came to me and said "I can always come around everytime and join them", which is a big blessing to me hoping that I will get a chance one day to do all of it, because worship is one of things that is deep in my heart. Those are ideas of what I'm going to be doing during my break. 

Prayer requests; Prayer for long term supporters, so I could be able to cover all of my cost of living monthly, as I continue learning and serving here in missions. Pray for a friend that can! and willing to commit to support me monthly. Another thing I mentioned and asked you to pray for is my visit to Germany. It has been confirmed by the Father, will be leaving in August but still trusting for my ticket, still in need of 10.000 rand, trusting by the end of this month I will have all of it so I can buck. So if you can there's a donation batten, it doesn't matter how much whatever you can it will mean a lot to me.

Thank you again to everyone, for your love and support! you all are big blessing to my life. Again none of who I am now and all that I have, learned would've been possible without meeting beautiful, wonderful people like you. THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!

God bless!